Because I have writer’s block and surveys are fun and ridden with nostalgia for my tween self! YAY.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? ABSOLUTELY—hate them with every fiber of my being and will be sure to let you know it if you’re smoking one, too. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? Single. And always confused. Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? Not in those exact words, but basically, yes. Are you interested in anyone right now? Sometimes I convince myself that I am—hard to tell if it’s genuine or if I’m just bored, which probably means I’m just bored. What are you looking forward to in the next week? GOING TO CHICAGO. Do you want to be single? I am single. I’d like to be in a relationship—but the right one. Did you go out or stay in last night? I was out late-ish but not “out” out. How late did you stay up last night? Midnight. Last three things you had to drink? Coffee, water, more water. Have you pretended to like someone? I’ve never intentionally pretended, but I have tried too hard to force myself into liking someone because other people thought they were “right” for me—whatever that means. Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? No. I tell my family and friends I love them—haven’t told a guy that in years because I haven’t felt it. Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Yes. Is it hard for you to get over someone? Not if they do something super hurtful, and I realize their true character is kind of awful, but if things end without some major error on either side (or only on mine) than it is difficult for me. What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? Pulling my back out (yesterday). Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? Most likely—I’m pretty good at cutting it out. What would you name your future daughter? If I have one, I like androgynous names, like Cooper or something. Do you miss anyone? Always a little. Have you kissed three or more people in one night? Nope. Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? Yes and I cut it short because I was too tired. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Hahaha. Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes but I usually cry more out of pure sadness—kind of wish I used that release for anger more often but instead I tend to say dumb things while experiencing uncomfortable periods of rage. Who did you last see in person? My roommate, Adam. What is something you currently want right now? For my back pain to go away, and for it to be later in the day. How is your heart lately? That’s a loaded question. Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Only if I’m freezing. What do people call you? Jess if they’re someone I want to spend time with, Jessica if they’re awkward or trying to keep their distance. Jessie if they’re my younger siblings. Bug if you’re my dad. Bunny if you’re my mom. Will you talk to the person you like tonight? This survey is so cute. Are there any stressful situations in your life? Yeah, the incessant dialogue in my head. Who did you last share a bed with? Through the night? An attractive young gent from Florida who I met at a family friend’s fundraiser and danced all night with. He was dreamy, and probably an apparition. Did you do something bad today? Define bad. When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? When I was subtly trying to kick out a date who came over, he hugged me goodbye. Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Gee, let me think. Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? My mother, my therapist, my friends—especially Najla, Julia, Olivia, and Ana. Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? Ahem, yes. Once for a concussion, once for drinking too much. Gud timez. What are you listening to right now? Sirens and the heater. What is wrong with you right now? I have a muscle spasm in my back and I can’t stop blowing my nose, among other things. What is on your wrists right now? A hair tie and an old burn mark from a flat iron. Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? University of Chicago. What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? These days, hot apple cider for sure—though I used to drink hot chocolate until I felt like I was going to puke. Like, that was my daily intake from ages 2-13. Do you make wishes at 11:11? If I look at the clock right at that time I totally do. Are you a good artist? Some people have told me I am, I randomly considered going to art school, but I don’t think I have any inherent talent—I’m a much better writer. Ever been on a golf cart? Yes, and I also got run over by one at camp one summer and told everyone about it dramatically because, you know, I’m me. Do you have trust issues? Hahaha. Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? Not all night, but definitely very late into the night with many different people—usually ones I had feelings for. Do you own something from Hot Topic? Not to my knowledge, though I did used to like the fit of their black skinny jeans better than anywhere else, OK. Do you use chapstick? Yes, but not obsessively like some people (see: my brother, my dad). Have you ever slapped someone in the face? I’m afraid so—not proud of it. Have you ever been to New York? You could say that. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Yes, I am not sure of many things but I am very sure that my mom loves me. Have you hugged someone within the last week? I hugged my friend Olivia when she left my apartment last weekend, and also the guy I mentioned subtly kicking out, ha. What were you doing at midnight last night? GETTING INTO BED LIKE THE DIRTY GIRL I AM. Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Definitely. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? So, so many people. The most reliable for that would be Najla, Jake, Zach/Annie/Zoe/Gabe, Olivia, and Lydia – they’re some funny little shits. Were your last three kisses from the same person? Nope. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Honestly, I prefer sleeping alone—I am super fidgety and also like to sprawl out in strange formations, so having another body around is not ideal. Will next Friday be a good one? YES. Halloween in Chicago–seeing some of my favorite people. What’s a food that you like every once in awhile but not often? Olives. Would you rather visit the 60s or 70s? Tough call—you’ll have to pick for me. Are you the type of person that enjoys getting hugs? From people I know well, yes. I’m not into the whole “hug everyone you meet” thing but I think I’ve started doing it because it seems so expected and awkward if you don’t. Gray or Grey? Ugh, I never know which way to go. Will you be buying concert tickets any time soon? No, I recently bought Mac DeMarco tickets though. Is there something you’d fall apart if you didn’t have? Running; banana with peanut butter; good books. How many weddings have you been to? Only a few but I love weddings—they’re so much fun if you’re not directly involved. Would you rather have an orange, red or gray bedroom? Gray, obviously. Would you ever dye part of your hair blue? Highly unlikely. Have you ever gone to a private school? Yes, when I lived in Manhattan for elementary school. Turn on the TV. What channel are you on? I don’t own a TV. Are you good at swimming? Nope—the opposite. I can swim, but with zero form and plenty of embarrassment. What’s worse : Slow internet or slow walkers? THEY’RE BOTH THE DEVIL. What is the rudest thing a guy has ever done to you? Where to begin! Are you a fast or slow walker? Obnoxiously fast. Do you usually have to wear a belt with your pants? Depends on the pants and the state of my tummy ;) Does it bother you when people’s underwear hangs out? I mean I’m not personally offended by it—do YOU. What age do you look forward to reaching? 28-30, when I’ll hopefully be slightly less conflicted about virtually everything. What exercise do you hate the most? Soul Cycle is the pre-cum of exercise–unfulfilling and stupid. What do you do at a party? Glare at people, wish I was somewhere else.